The Clown In Me -the clown... by Nancy-Lee Mauger

The Clown In Me -the clown challenge

"Stop clowning around. You're making such a clown of yourself." Class clown. Such things have always been said of me. And each time I've wanted to run away and hide. I do have a pretty good sense of humor and I'm quite witty, but there is a part of me that just doesn't know how to keep it in check sometimes. So here is my portrait of my clown for the challenge.

11x14 watercolor 6/26/13
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Ha...Nancy-Lee..funny thing, I just drew myself as a clown for the challenge, but haven't uploaded it yet...I've never seen such sad eyes on a clown..those eyes...oh, so beautiful!
Hugs to you, sweetie!x
over 1 year ago
I enjoy my inner clown. I think she often protects me from the pain that I think others will inflict. You know, joke about my chubbiness before they get to take the dig. . . Ah. . .if people could just be a little sweeter...Thank you for your sweetness. xo
over 1 year
So colorful and fun, except this clown is crying on the inside, I think. I so love this one, Nancy. You and Elizabeth would, indeed, been a pair. LOL Super work. Love, Gail
over 1 year
Thanks Gail. I did not expect it to turn out like this. I've gotten in so much trouble having fun. And not having fun. ah. the mystery...:? xox Thanks for the love ...NL
over 1 year
Sounds like me NL. I am always clowning around and at times I overstep the mark. Absolutely love this because it reminds me of me. Take care and hugs.
over 1 year
I love that you love it because it reminds you of you, Ken. That makes it so special to me!!! XXOOXX ~ Nancy-Lee
over 1 year
Great portrait clown. Love the way you did the eyes. Very good work Nancy-Lee
Sy
over 1 year
Thanks Sy! It was kind of luck working with gouache. I really enjoy using the white. I never know what will happen and it's always kind of magical.
over 1 year
This is so moving.. such sensitivity within an array of vibrant yet gentle colours.
over 1 year
Thanks so much Me. What a lovely comment. I appreciate it very very much.~ Nancy-Lee
over 1 year
Haha!!! I'm like you, the clown in the class and the clown outside school as well. I was always the one who was caught...
Well done miss clown
Take care
Ola
over 1 year
OLA! How did I know? :_) I got caught a lot as well... But I have an infectious laugh so that helped ease the pain. . . xo
over 1 year
Reminds me of a danish poet called Benny Andersen. He used to be quite the depressed typem writting only about sorrow and sadness. Then suddenly one day, he told himself - Today I will write a happy poem no matter what, today will be the change! This picture reminds me of this, or atleast to cry your very inside out with a joy on your face.. You know Nancy we both love eyes very much, and I have to say, that these eyes have so much too tell.. All my love for your future paintings.. :-) Hope else you are well and all ..

Many kind and warm regards,

Tue Ulrik
over 1 year
What an absolutely beautiful and heart warming comment, Tue. Thank you so much. That's just about how it is for me. It's kind of funny, in a weird way. I've had to go into hospital over the past couple of years for my mental health treatment. I've done a program at a women't treatment center that centers around Dialectical behavior therapy. That involves going 5 days a week to a program that has group after group about things like mindfulness, emotion regulation, interpersonal relationship, anger management, etc. One thing that we had to do was to keep a diary card. It had listed on it emotions and we had to check in with ourselves 3 times a day and rate, on a scale of 1 (not at all) to 10 (very much) how we were feeling that emotion. The emotions were: Anger, Sad, Fear, Guilt, Jealousy, and Joy. I took such issue with the word JOY. I said, "It should just be happy. Can't we just say we're feeling happy? Joy is a big, big deal. Hell, Beethoven wrote an entire ODE to it...." Well....my inner clown came out... I got reprimanded and they did not agree... I wasn't happy. Joy got a 0 and Anger got a 10.
Comments like these make me feel Joy. I'm understanding joy a lot more these days.....
Thanks for that! It means so much.

xoxo ~ Nancy-Lee
over 1 year
NL...I love the bright and beautiful colors and the hugh smile. So well designed!!!!!! I used to have to sit in the corner of my classroom for being a clown and disrupting the class...Never have changed...but I did graduate..Got an "F" in conduct though..LOL I would rather laugh and accept the bad grade..Not too smart.....Love this painting so much. Hugs, Ann
over 1 year
HA! Ann! no way! I got kicked off of the cheer leading squad for 4 games because I got a 4 in conduct. I swear it wasn't my fault. I love to laugh. It's not good sometimes.. I get into such trouble. I've been known to take down a whole brass section in a pit orchestra with the giggles. Thanks for loving my painting. xo~ NL
over 1 year
Hi Nancy, this is great, all the bright colours are wonderful,and I like her eyes, warm wishes Brenda xxxxx.
over 1 year
Thanks Brenda. I appreciate it!!
over 1 year
Fantastic response to the challenge Nancy-Lee. Love your clown with the big smile and sad eyes. Well done as always. Cheers Glenys.
over 1 year
Nicely done Nancy
over 1 year
Thanks Barry. I appreciate your comments.
over 1 year
....dear NL. So beautiful, very emotional. He is very honest.The eyes are all dreamy . That look...is what makes his special....all his thoughts behind that look... Lovely colours too :-). Best wishes dear Nance -Lee !! XXX Monika
over 1 year
really like the bright colors and cheer in contrast to you usual portrates
over 1 year
Yes, it is a nice change, isn't it? :_) Thanks so much. ;)
over 1 year
Great work Nancy, very expressive and beautiful.
over 1 year
Hi Priscilla. Thanks so much!
over 1 year
Nancy-Lee, this is wonderful I can see the child-like wonder and sensitivity, innocence, happiness beaming from within those eyes. a dear clown! love the colors!
over 1 year
Thanks TAB! I loved how this came out as well. I wasn't sure what my 'clown' would possibly look like. Thanks for your wonderful comment. xox
over 1 year
FABULOUS!! The colours and the composition and..BUT THEN, I look again and REALLY SEE those large and beautiful eyes and realize that what I'm seeing is.. Heartbreak..My kid brother once wrote a poem about "sticking out" and of "being left out" in middle-school - the only line I can still recall is this: "And I alone did laugh"..It STILL tears me apart with its deep and f-e-l-t paaaaain..A wonderfully Honest and Powerful and incredibly Moving portrait, N-L..I am sooo PROUD of YOU!! LOVE this!! Esp. for its COURAGE!! Bravo and Bravo and Bravoooo!! HUGE, warm hugs
over 1 year
Ah, don't we all have a little bit of the clown in us? I love this happy colorful work. Just beautiful, Nancy-Lee!
over 1 year
You make a lovely clown Nancy- Lee.. Very sad eyes.. lovely smily mouth.. Love your colours!... Marilynx
over 1 year
You're so sweet, Marilyn. Thanks so much. xo, Nancy-Lee
over 1 year
very challenge art Nancy-Lee. Love your clown, the big smile and sad eyes makes me smile...
Well done love it
over 1 year
This is great Nancy-Lee. I always tend to see sadness in a clown's face, as if they are trying to put on a brave smile. A very touching portrait. Regards, Brigitte.
over 1 year
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Nancy-Lee MaugerI never intended to be a painter. At 18 I found myself in NYC studying to become a professional French Hornist. And that I did. I've played horn for the past 32 years. Along with being a musician, I raised two wonderful children. They are both young adults and are beginning to discover the path that suits them best. Despite my love of music, my chosen path was not always smooth. Somewhere along the way I had the good fortune to discover art therapy as a way to help me cope with some severe depression. While I'd never considered picking up a paintbrush in my adult life, art therapy opened up a new world inside of me.
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Not only has it literally saved my life, but over time my work has evolved from therapeutic painting to art....
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